It's not what it seems.

Walked into a place after 4 long months.

College; a territory I once knew well, by the back of my hand. Haven't been in a class for a long time now. Yesterday was the first day back after putting education on hold for those 4 months. It was familiar. I know the ways of the area, the facilities and the faces. Well, a few of them.

As much as it was familiar to me, it was unfamiliar as well.

The college may look the same, but it doesn't feel the same. I didn't know any of my classmates nor the lecturer. I'm not complaining about that part at all, mind you. The 1st assignment has the same theme but it is given with a different approach by the lecturer.

I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not, really.

Because I was expecting it to be the same, if it was, I'm familiar with the process. But at the same time, I didn't want it to be the same, because the last time was horror for me, I might make the same mistakes and fail at accomplishing the tasks perfectly.

I may have done it before, but it is still all alien to me.

I feel like I'm in front of two pathways, unsure of what I really want. Because what I expected and what I hoped for, clashes between each other and left me not knowing of which would be better.

It's more like, wishing it to be in a familiar area so you could be in your comfort zone, you don't have to feel awkward and out of place, but at the same time, do you really want it to be all the same as the last time?

But I shall have good hopes for the new surrounding.

♥oves,

vee.